"niggas talk about change and working within the system to achieve that, the problem with always being a conformist is that when you try to change the system from within, it's not you who changes the system but the system that will eventually change you"--Immortal Technique
That quote freaks me out...
why?
simply because it is probably true...
okay so I know that I might take these blogs a bit too serious, but I couldn't blog because i needed to be in the right mood, the right place and needed something relevant to say.
so I'm back home..it's been a week but if feels like a month...I am so bored and I can't seem to get my stupid butt up to go look for a job...I'm a b**ch--i don't want to work with food or at wal-mart because i feel that i am better than that..I know, so lame, but I do not want to work at the bank-- too stressful.
I just can't seem to go for the places i like because fear rejection--and i finally came to terms with that..i am stuck in a horrible and vicious circle...and my house has no air conditioning...and we live in the desert...I hate p-dale with a fiery passion...oh L.A. I miss roaming her streets, late night metro rides to/from Hollywood, Pasadena, Glendale, Santa Monica/Venice and Malibu...Los Angeles is beautiful, but my laziness is impeding me from going...
the wireless at home sucks, but hey it's wireless!
so since my last entry, I have finished my first year of college...and what an interesting year it was...good, bad, boring, fun,
overall? AMAZING...simply lovely...
I finished my finals...pretty good...but i am a tough critic and I hope that next year brings more success....
packing was horrendous...dad came and we had an awesome 6 hour drive home--my dad is the best...and mom is wonderful, but they got all religious on me..haha..they get along better so i guess i can't complain...lil bro is amazing..growing up way too fast..and lil sis is good too..she really freaks me out though...idk why...maybe cause she is growing up too fast, or maybe it's her feisty-ness...i hate being in the middle of her and the rents arguments...i try to stay out of them, but for some reason my name is always brought up...those are the times i wish i were back in davis. I miss family outings--my sis and my dad aren't into them :/
so what have i been doing at home?
absolutely nothing--i sleep late, i wake up late, and waste my whole day watching stupid t.v.
Things that i have been doing are listening and absorbing all types of music from my beloved hyphy to my indie to my gansta rap to politically driven and social conscious music..spanish music, arabic music, everything...it consumes my soul in the most amazing way..if anyone has recommendations, send them my way--i love music--oh and micheal buble is lovely:)
I've been watching the news CNN status [i know 4th branch status--immortal] but i love being informed of both sides--i love knowing what fundamentalist, functionalist, republican people have to say--that is the only way my opinions will have credibility...plus Anderson Cooper is a total hottie...sigh...another gay that i fell for...
I seriously cannot believe that when i go back to davis, I won't be with my suite-ies from 110--though at time we all had our disagreements, we had an amazing relationship, I just wish someone would put their guard down and allow us to do so too...oh well the year has passed, i just hope we continue our wonderful relationship despite living separately.
i have great plans for this summer--i think that I am in a rut right now, just because i needed a break from the world, but soon I'll be back in action so to all my socal friends, i'm home and ALMOST ready...I miss my babe, my best friend..i dont even talk to him on the phone...I have not paid my phone bill and i dont plan on doing it anytime soon..my rents offered to pay, but i did not accept...why?
don't you just ever need that disconnection?
I do....
i have some pictures from the last couple of weeks of school..and i realized how much weight i had gained...i freaked out...thank God I have a crazy Salvadorean mother who always makes sure to tell me how fat i am...she is feeding me healthy: in small portions and no food at night...we take walks at night and I already lost two pounds...unbelievable right? haha..
my goal? 84 pounds a la nicole richie..only everyone tells me that is bad so i will settle for 95-105..reasonable enough...
voxtrot signing
voxtrot playing
V and me
Me Thongxy and Voxtrot<3
ikra, me, marina
hilda, sylvia, maribel
visitor's wall<3
suite 110
ramesh-the voxtrot kid
[check out his blog under 'mis favoritos']
home--ehh ex-home
door<3
memory wall
kris, thongxy & Voxtrot
wayyyy old...kris, tiff, me...pukey puke...
body bagssss...we had other roomates..we didn't like them :]
Voxtrot :]
so i am really angry--i just watched the new hilary duff video and she is wearing bamboo earrings and the Urban Outfitters catalog is now selling cheap versions of bamboo earrings...ahh...they are going to get popular and then thrown out as last season's "it" accessory.
I got my bamboo earrings a while back and I just got an new pair<3
.....it sucks for the awesome ghetto hip hop girls who have been wearing them for YEARS!
I hate the fashion industry--and yet..I LOVE IT...sigh...oh hipsters....
bambooo earrings<3
speaking of hipsters..I am in love with DJ Gina Turner's bf DJ Dan O..the cutest asian boy ever...he is pretty much what I look for in a good looks wise..[but not exclusively...]
DJ Dan-O, DJ Gina Turner, random hipster?
have you been keeping up with th news?
I hope so.
..hear the moderate Palestine officials take over of the Gaza strip?
dont know what to think of it...good I guess? but then it's CNN...idk... I found these lovely pics and I showed them to my dad..he laughed and said that will never happen and this war will be forever...that made me sad...
sigh...
politics it is.... at least for now ;)
my recommendation for today? oh man..I have too too many!
1) Sublime--> "Summertime" or "Doing Time" whichever title you prefer...
2) Manu Chao-->"Clandestino" and "Me Gustas Tu" shout out to El Salvador
3)Girl Talk...love him..
4)NWA, Tupac, Dr.Dre and Snoop-->"Fuck the Police" "Only God Can Judge Me" "Aint Nothing but A G thang"...LOVE old school hip hop
5)Radiohead--"The National Anthem"
6)Sean Kingston-->"Beautiful Girls"
7)E-40--> "Tell Me When to G0" ..I miss hyphyyyy hyphy..
8)Micheal Buble --->"Kissing a Fool"
9) Voxtrot--> "The Start of Something" (love Voxtrot)
10) N.E.R.D--> "Lapdance"
11) Mims---> "This is why I'm hot"
12) Feist-->"1234" and "The Park"
13) anything by my dear Immortal Technique..
14) Klaxons<3
14)ACID ROCK a la Beatles and Grateful Dead...
this is a taste of what i have been surviving on... oh music I love thee...
so off too bed..tomorrow promises to be a good day!
-melidee
why?
simply because it is probably true...
okay so I know that I might take these blogs a bit too serious, but I couldn't blog because i needed to be in the right mood, the right place and needed something relevant to say.
so I'm back home..it's been a week but if feels like a month...I am so bored and I can't seem to get my stupid butt up to go look for a job...I'm a b**ch--i don't want to work with food or at wal-mart because i feel that i am better than that..I know, so lame, but I do not want to work at the bank-- too stressful.
I just can't seem to go for the places i like because fear rejection--and i finally came to terms with that..i am stuck in a horrible and vicious circle...and my house has no air conditioning...and we live in the desert...I hate p-dale with a fiery passion...oh L.A. I miss roaming her streets, late night metro rides to/from Hollywood, Pasadena, Glendale, Santa Monica/Venice and Malibu...Los Angeles is beautiful, but my laziness is impeding me from going...
the wireless at home sucks, but hey it's wireless!
so since my last entry, I have finished my first year of college...and what an interesting year it was...good, bad, boring, fun,
overall? AMAZING...simply lovely...
I finished my finals...pretty good...but i am a tough critic and I hope that next year brings more success....
packing was horrendous...dad came and we had an awesome 6 hour drive home--my dad is the best...and mom is wonderful, but they got all religious on me..haha..they get along better so i guess i can't complain...lil bro is amazing..growing up way too fast..and lil sis is good too..she really freaks me out though...idk why...maybe cause she is growing up too fast, or maybe it's her feisty-ness...i hate being in the middle of her and the rents arguments...i try to stay out of them, but for some reason my name is always brought up...those are the times i wish i were back in davis. I miss family outings--my sis and my dad aren't into them :/
so what have i been doing at home?
absolutely nothing--i sleep late, i wake up late, and waste my whole day watching stupid t.v.
Things that i have been doing are listening and absorbing all types of music from my beloved hyphy to my indie to my gansta rap to politically driven and social conscious music..spanish music, arabic music, everything...it consumes my soul in the most amazing way..if anyone has recommendations, send them my way--i love music--oh and micheal buble is lovely:)
I've been watching the news CNN status [i know 4th branch status--immortal] but i love being informed of both sides--i love knowing what fundamentalist, functionalist, republican people have to say--that is the only way my opinions will have credibility...plus Anderson Cooper is a total hottie...sigh...another gay that i fell for...
I seriously cannot believe that when i go back to davis, I won't be with my suite-ies from 110--though at time we all had our disagreements, we had an amazing relationship, I just wish someone would put their guard down and allow us to do so too...oh well the year has passed, i just hope we continue our wonderful relationship despite living separately.
i have great plans for this summer--i think that I am in a rut right now, just because i needed a break from the world, but soon I'll be back in action so to all my socal friends, i'm home and ALMOST ready...I miss my babe, my best friend..i dont even talk to him on the phone...I have not paid my phone bill and i dont plan on doing it anytime soon..my rents offered to pay, but i did not accept...why?
don't you just ever need that disconnection?
I do....
i have some pictures from the last couple of weeks of school..and i realized how much weight i had gained...i freaked out...thank God I have a crazy Salvadorean mother who always makes sure to tell me how fat i am...she is feeding me healthy: in small portions and no food at night...we take walks at night and I already lost two pounds...unbelievable right? haha..
my goal? 84 pounds a la nicole richie..only everyone tells me that is bad so i will settle for 95-105..reasonable enough...
voxtrot signing
voxtrot playing
V and me
Me Thongxy and Voxtrot<3
ikra, me, marina
hilda, sylvia, maribel
visitor's wall<3
suite 110
ramesh-the voxtrot kid
[check out his blog under 'mis favoritos']
home--ehh ex-home
door<3
memory wall
kris, thongxy & Voxtrot
wayyyy old...kris, tiff, me...pukey puke...
body bagssss...we had other roomates..we didn't like them :]
Voxtrot :]
so i am really angry--i just watched the new hilary duff video and she is wearing bamboo earrings and the Urban Outfitters catalog is now selling cheap versions of bamboo earrings...ahh...they are going to get popular and then thrown out as last season's "it" accessory.
I got my bamboo earrings a while back and I just got an new pair<3
.....it sucks for the awesome ghetto hip hop girls who have been wearing them for YEARS!
I hate the fashion industry--and yet..I LOVE IT...sigh...oh hipsters....
bambooo earrings<3
speaking of hipsters..I am in love with DJ Gina Turner's bf DJ Dan O..the cutest asian boy ever...he is pretty much what I look for in a good looks wise..[but not exclusively...]
DJ Dan-O, DJ Gina Turner, random hipster?
have you been keeping up with th news?
I hope so.
..hear the moderate Palestine officials take over of the Gaza strip?
dont know what to think of it...good I guess? but then it's CNN...idk... I found these lovely pics and I showed them to my dad..he laughed and said that will never happen and this war will be forever...that made me sad...
sigh...
politics it is.... at least for now ;)
my recommendation for today? oh man..I have too too many!
1) Sublime--> "Summertime" or "Doing Time" whichever title you prefer...
2) Manu Chao-->"Clandestino" and "Me Gustas Tu" shout out to El Salvador
3)Girl Talk...love him..
4)NWA, Tupac, Dr.Dre and Snoop-->"Fuck the Police" "Only God Can Judge Me" "Aint Nothing but A G thang"...LOVE old school hip hop
5)Radiohead--"The National Anthem"
6)Sean Kingston-->"Beautiful Girls"
7)E-40--> "Tell Me When to G0" ..I miss hyphyyyy hyphy..
8)Micheal Buble --->"Kissing a Fool"
9) Voxtrot--> "The Start of Something" (love Voxtrot)
10) N.E.R.D--> "Lapdance"
11) Mims---> "This is why I'm hot"
12) Feist-->"1234" and "The Park"
13) anything by my dear Immortal Technique..
14) Klaxons<3
14)ACID ROCK a la Beatles and Grateful Dead...
this is a taste of what i have been surviving on... oh music I love thee...
so off too bed..tomorrow promises to be a good day!
-melidee
