so that is where I spent all my week. Once I would get home I was too tired to do anything else....I did get a bit of my PoliSci book read...wow...politics are so intense and dirty but hecka interesting.
so I have seeked refugee in the Silo...I really want to go home and sleep but I am meeting one of the girls from the sorority...so tomorrow I take the math placement test so I am going to study of om my trig and calc...I'm a little rusty...OMG so all my classes have so much reading...like its ridiculous....but I need to do it......but I feel like I need a good sleep...one of those wonderful naps I take during the afternoon with the lights off and music in the background...hmm..some radiohead sounds good for today....but somehow I have that avril song stuck in my head....hey hey I don't like your girlfriend...haha...she cracks me up....gotta love her...
I learned so much at the conferences...fashion is part of culture, identity, politics, etc...it is powerful force and industry....ooh I totally got the Street: the Nylon Book of Global Style...I love Marvin Scott Jarrett's approach, though I do think he should have included L.A.
The book is so relative to all the concepts i learned in the conferences.
"..and the talking leads to touching...and the touching leads to sex, and then there is no mystery left..."
:]
anywhoo, I realized how I look at everyone's outfit from head to toe...i try not to judge, but rather think what would make it better....
ooh one of the speakers who also happens to be my T.A. for the class [yay!!] said something so amazing that has helped me to decide how to dress and how to feel....she said...."if you know don't like your outfit just imagine walking around and being magnified 300 times..." and that is soooo true...whenever I hate or somehow dislike what i am wearing I feel like EVERYONE is staring.....so when i get dressed in the morning I now listen to my heart and imagine being magnified 300 times...it works....
on that note, I am in search for the perfect black cardigan....you know what I am talking about? There is a certain little black cardigan out there and it just goes with everything...it is PERFECT...not to tight, not too loose, not to warm, not to cool, perfect for every occasion, where you pair it with a band tee and jeans or with a baby doll dress...it never fades, it never looks dirty..it is not too memorable so people won't notice you wear it everyday with everything...it just makes you feel like you are protected...it is just perfect...well I used to have it..a little black cardigan with all of the qualities mentioned above and I miss it so much...
so what happened to it? okay so Homecoming gave 2004, Jess and I were going to premiere our Psychedelic Dolls jackets but she flaked at the last minute so I opted to wear my cardigan...then at the game, cheltzie lee did not bring a sweater and it was FREEZING....I decide to let her borrow my PERFECT cardigan and I wear my psychedoll jacket....i tell her to give it back on monday at school. She doesn't bring it...it takes her the rest of the semester and then she just brings me one of her black cardigans....it was cute...it fit nice, but it was not mine! It had some flower and sequence detailed on the front...she tells me to keep it until she brings me mine...finally one day she brings me mine! yes! so I go to my tote back to get hers so we can trade and it is not there! ahh...it must have fallen out! so now I felt bad...i lost her black cardigan ...so I did something bold [and now stupid] I decide to give her my cardigan....now in retrospect, I think, why didn't I just buy her another cardigan?
I know it doesn't sound like a big deal but I really loved...no LOVE that cardigan...and I have not been able to find one like it since....
so thinking about my little black cardigan, I realized I can relate so much to life....and boys..and/ or anything....we are all just trying to find our little black cardigan...we know it is somewhere out there..we've had it...or some form of it...but it is gone, we let it go, and though there are hundreds of other little black cardigans, we know that there is that one out there...the question is whether or not we are willing to wait to find the perfect little black cardigans or just try to fill its place with other black cardigans, [and in my case different colors and styles...]
what i fear though is that if I ever find that little black cardigan again, I will be disappointed...maybe it won't fit the same because i grew, or it won't go with everything because my style had changed too much, or it will be too warm for the summer and not warm enough for the winter
.....so I wonder, is it better to keep it my ideal cardigan but halt my search for it because maybe, just maybe, things are better left as a dream?
[hmm....i hope that those who read this realized what i am trying to say...I love that cardigan, but look deeper...]
also, after the conferences i was inspired...I hate doing laundry so I have been wearing the same Levis for a while...I am not in search for the perfect designer jeans...some that satisfy all needs...length, fit, color, etc....I am debating between Joe's jeans or Earnest Sewn, Mavis, Tsubi but I am still doing research....they have to be perfect....
I need to learn to sew!!!!
I shall revamp some old jeans that I have...
*Mavi
*Joe's jeans
*Earnest Sewn
okay so Picnic Day @ UCD is coming up and in case you haven't heard, its kind of a big deal...games, selling stuff. fashion shows, music. alumni come back, etc...so I ask everybody, so what do you do on picnic day? the answer?--->you drink ..you party night before,get wasted and it is the only day of the year where it is acceptable to get drunk at 9am...hmm...that should be quite interesting....
well enough of my blabbing....I need to save my battery for my studying...oh calculus, how i missed you.....
recommendation for today?----> Infidels "Satellite in My Brain."-->"She kicks her boots of and climbs on top of everyone." :]
p.s. how cute is this? prospective students are visiting the campus so in the morning I was getting dressed and going out the door when I see kids and parents in my suite taking a tour of my living room and bathroom...That was me last year...ahh..time...where I have you gone? come back to me.......
* Me at UCD preview day a year ago...
-melidee
